My spirituality

I am a 41 years old woman. My conscious spiritual journey has begun around 2000, when I begun to found information that was answering my questions about Who am I? I remember me making that question when I was in the mirror since I was 7 years old approximately, but at that time I used to run away because I was afraid of looking deep into my eyes. Then at the age of 22, in 2000, I assisted to a workshop where I began to find answers and new knowledge. Since then I have decided to became a more spiritual person, or to develop my spirituality, first I left to eat meet (I haven't eaten red meet since then anymore) and I began meditation practices and was reading about that matter. But, my practice wasn't regular and I wasn't living my practice at that time. Then in 2015 Yoga found me, I begun to practice Yoga Asana for 40 Days and in that period I begun to feel changes in my physical body and also in my mind and in my soul, I wasn't afraid anymore for my weight and the shame of my body, and I was feeling self love as never, something was happening and I wanted to understand more, so I begun to study Yoga. I made my first teacher training course on June 2016 (200h), in Lima, and I meet my teacher who is an amazing decoder for me, through her I begun to understand life. Then I continued studying with her (300h) to deep in the philosophy of Yoga, and I begun to apply the practices in my own life. My life changed completely. In this Journey I also began to travel to other countries, observe live, observe people, religions, spiritual practices, listening to spiritual masters , and I have learned from all of them. Last year, in November, I traveled to India for the first time, and I went to Ramana Maharshi Ashram in Tiruvannamalai, and I meet his teachings and I found myself more aware and more connected with God.

I am very grateful with life for all the experiences that I have, each one is showing me the way to my real being, every day. So, my practice now is not only physical (asana), I practice everyday all the teachings, I observe my thoughts and feelings, I feel the feelings, I analyze where they come from, I accept and I keep on going. Is hard work.
I don't believe, I have faith in the existence of a perfect power divine force that governs everything, I have faith that each being has the qualities of the divine force, in different proportions. I have faith that all the universe is perfect, and works by the grace of the divine. That there is no beginning, no end, that all the existence IS permanently and constantly, but everything changes and moves inside this perfection. Like the movement of the breath that keep us alive, all these movement is needed to keep the existence existing.

How is possible that the nature works in perfection, without human being intervention. Who is making the trees to grow, who is moving the worms to live near that or those tree, who is calling the bees to this kind of flour or the other, who is making rain when the earth need it, who is directing the birds to migrate when the cold approaches... and so on... so on.. Nature works in perfection, in harmony, nature is moving, breathing, changing, every minute, guided for the divine force that is in every particle and in all at the same time...And the human beings we are part of the nature, but with a little more consciousness... why? why we are not just the same as every other being, that flows with nature, that do what is meant to do, that doesn't complain, that doesn't suffer, that doesn't have desires, that doesn't question, that accept the facts as they are, why we have the chance to choose what to think and feel and how to act? why we have consciousness?

My destination would be to experience consciously the Divine, God, now. Be an instrument of the divine power, and assist people in the process of self healing, and show people methods to stop the suffering.